BROKEN SPIRIT - YOU ARE NOT ALONE

In the many articles that we have written all of them have been about things in life that have touched our hearts. We have written on things that made us happy and things that have torn our hearts out and stomped on them. We have written when we knew not if anyone read what we wrote, but we never gave up or gave in.

For those of you that have been with us a long time, or have looked back through the articles, you will see recj/LJG or LJG/recj. Depending on whose intials were first is who wrote the article. Always though it was the two of us together. It has not been that way for a while. LJG had only been off-line while in the hospital or in rehab. Feb.2009 through Jan. 2010. recj was no longer here.

There were all kinds of things that lead up to recj being away, but the real factor crept in slow until it consumed me. Depression is a very lonely road. We try to hide it behind other things. As a Christian it is hard to accept and at times seemed harder to fight. I remember Jan Crouch talking about the battle that she had with depression, it was a hard road.

I know that I was not alone, but I could not feel the God I so loved and thought I lived for. My God was there and without Him it would have been alot worst. But not alone, when I look at the Word of God and see the great men of God who also cried out. Jeremiah has even been called the weeping prophet, but the list includes: Abraham, Jonah, Job, Elijah, King Saul, King David, and Paul.

Psalm 38:6,8 [King David] "I am troubled, I am bowed down greatly; I go mourning all the day long. …I groan because of the turmoil of my heart"

I was given the simple answer to praise God. Great how do I praise my Saviour who I know and believe in my heart is the only reason to live, when I feel nothing. Nothing for myself, no joy, no goose bumps, no nothing. The Lord says He will not put more on you then you can bear. The one thing that kept me holding on to the faith I had was if someone around me needed prayer my spirit would fly into action. For myself though I felt nothing.

Many the time I would cry out or start to pray. Lord I love you, I know you are there, do you hear me, help me. I felt nothing in return. The more time went by the less I tried to talk to Him, not hearing hurt to much. I would believe without feeling, but my depression got worst. The other night I spoke with a Bishop of God who is also a prophet. She told me she had been through times when she did not feel His presence, but only for a short time. I looked at her and said but for two years, it was the first time I had admitted that.

I have a great group of Apostles, Bishops and Pastors that have been praying for me, and my LJG. My joy came back a few weeks ago. The desire to write again is returning. I can see the light and can almost reach out and touch it. There has been no eye opening shock of a miracle. It is like I am on a mountian climbing, only now the equipment I need has been placed before me.

Why I could ask? Maybe like Job the answer will never come. I am getting stronger because of the journey, as I use these muscles. My body and my soul will be refreshed and renewed stronger then they were before.

If your spirit is broken remember your faith is your shield of protection. Ephesians 6:16

Faith comes from hearing. Romans 10:17

He is before you, beside you, will never fail you. Dueuteronomy 31:8

He desires for us to prosper in all things. 3 John 1:2

Arise and shine. Isaiah 60:1 The AMP actually says it this way.
ARISE [from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you
--rise to a new life]! Shine (be radiant with the glory of the Lord),
for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you.

He comforts and encourages. 2 Corinthians 7:6

Give it all to Him. 1 Peter 5:6-7

He heals the brokenhearted. Psalm 147:3

We are healed and made whole. Isaiah 53:5

I will end with this scripture: Isaiah 49:14-16 NKJV But Zion said, "The LORD has forsaken me, And my Lord has forgotten me." "Can a woman forget her nursing child, And not have compassion on the son of her womb? Surely they may forget, Yet I will not forget you. See, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands;Your walls are continually before Me.

My name is written on His palms, oh what a child of Christ I am.

Praises be to God. If this has touched your heart, please let us know.

God Bless
recj/LJG

What a blessing it is to know that my recj is coming back. She has been missed so much. We can in for many blessing's now that she will be writing for us. Thank You Jesus for making us whole and for keeping us in Your Love. No matter what may come or go You are always with us. Leading, guiding and loving us for all eternity. LJG