KEEPING HUMBLE BEFORE GOD

You know staying Humble before God can be tough in the flesh. God wants a soft tender heart to work with. And For years God tore down walls of pain from around my heart to get to that fleshy stage. After many tears and strongholds torn down. I felt it! I rejoiced that God had removed the walls of attitudes around my heart. I felt confident that even when someone hurt me with my new fleshy heart, that GOD is my refuge and He is my Advenger. He would protect me. And somehow, I also thought and believed that If I really worked on being kinder to others and more compassionate and understanding to everyone, that in return they would do so back to me. I mean we are all brothers and sisters in Christ, so shouldn't we LOVE one another as Christ loved us? Well, Most part I was right in believing that, and in believing that if I treat others as I want to be treated so they will return the favor. But I have also learned that there are some people God is still working on as He is on me, and they still HURT others through working out their own pain. So what do I do? I've prayed for them, loved them with a smile and looked the other way. I mean Paul did. He was beaten in prison, layed in horrible conditions and still PRAISED GOD and loved people. I mean He led a prison guard to the Lord! What a testimony. Okay, Im not Paul. Don't claim to be. In fact I even failed the test. Lord forgive me!! I get so tired of being walked on and takin advantage of. I have prayed and ask GOD's help. I dont ever want to offend anyone, so I take it and figure God will work it all out. I know He will. But lately, I am so depleted and tired. My flesh is weak Lord. I dont' want to hurt anymore. I don't want to turn the other cheek. I am tempted to snap back with an unkind word if one is thrown at me. Lord that is not my heart. In fact I find myself wanting to cut myself off from the WORLD completely. Stay in my comfy lil humble home, Worship God alone and not bother anyone. BUT, I know in my deepest part of my heart that is not what GOD has called us to do. You know FEAR is a horrible Trap that keeps You from serving God will all Your Heart and all the potential He has placed in YOU! God revealed my fears to me; there are 3 of them. And I laid them down on the altar Easter Morning along with many others. WELL, Guess What happen? You got it! A test! God didn't waste any time, He sent that test priority express! Then this morning I begin reading as God would lead me to. Funny, how God's Holy Spirit knows what we need before we do. He specifically whispered James 4 after reading it, I was like okay GOD, Help ME Draw Nearer to You. I want to be closer to You to be more and more Like You.

Angel
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